I treated them like shit, which was soooo bad...I know it and knew it....I acknowledged it and I need to work on it...I went to therapy...I found out I treated men like shit because of the behavior of my father towards my mom, I was taking revenge on them.....holy cow how deep that was....I have worked on my self, the influence your up bringing has on your behavior is out of this world.....any way I dealt with it....I am still not completely there...but I did ask all my ex boyfriends for forgiveness.....funny some asked me for what??? LOL.....but the accepted it and forgave me...there is 1 who will not ever talk to me or will ever forgive me...I have hurt him terribly...so so sorry from the bottom of my heart