In my marriage I have ups and downs...my hubby has tantrum that's what you hear in the background....His best friend Bryan passed away...he's in pain...he is going for the memorial to St Louis where he is from. I have never been there I have never met his parents nor his siblings, its like he keeps it secret for me, what if I find out about certain things from his past, but what can be really so horrible??? I don't believe there is anything in life you should be embarrassed about, he is going all alone to st Louis, I really wanted to go, I feel left out but I guess he knows what he is hiding from me...do you know that he does not talk to his mom not after 9-11 2001 nor to his sister??? I really can't imagine a life without my mom in it...but that his decision...ok I am not going...they are all weed smokers anyway, they will have a concert in honor of Bryan I will make him a garden in Aruba. Because when he came to our house he brought lots of shells and white stones to my house, I will do something about in his honor. Hope hubby has a good time meeting all his old time friends I am heading to Europe I am going to Asia......that will do.