I have not always been nice to all my male partners my ex boyfriends...I have been in therapy and it to do with the way my father treated my mother, with other women, and I treated my lovers without respect, I have hurt them, I have been unfaithful, it was my way to the highway...I know it when I realized it I knew I needed help I found out why but I needed to learn how to change it....I have been horrible at certain times but I was also good. In one of my first relationships i was unfaithful and he caught me but instead of kicking me out he picked me up from the airport and gave me sapphire earrings champagne and red roses....I felt so guilty and believe me that was a worse punishment.....make no mistake this same boyfriend later slept with a lot of women and sometimes I think maybe it was because of me but hell no....it was because that's how he is......NOW its like its karma I have married the love of my life...and now I find out what an abusive guy he is like I am being punished for all the others....so yeah never take I dodge all the misery.....hell no...one more thing....I have made amends with all the ex boyfriends who I have hurt in the past and I have asked for forgiveness, I did get it from them except for one who is way to bitter and still hates me...
I do accept my faith, its my path in life and I take full responsibility so I suck it up for as long as I can